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Taimon

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I developed acoustic shock disorder in March 2013 from a faulty power supply of an electronic device that short circuited creating a sound like that of a handgun shot directly in front of me. This immediately set off severe hyperacusis, tinnitus and trigeminal nerve pain.

For three years this most severe form of hyperacusis dominated every single moment of my days due to the constant tensor tympani -muscle spasms. Every single everyday sound sent me off into a panic and a misaphonic reaction. My mind was on a constant emergency alert and I was always hyper-vigilant of my sound environment and had never ending misaphonia and phonophobia, I lived in this tormented trauma state for nearly three years. During this time I tested so many countless of different drugs without them really easing my being, with possibly the exception of one.

Well, my hyperacusis was practically cured in early 2016. Don't know exactly why or how it suddenly eased. I had done pink/white noise therapy for a couple years without it really doing anything to gradually make my sound tolerance better. That is to say the hyperacusis could be as bad as it was on the first few days even years later with therapy. However this sudden recovery development corresponded with me starting baclofen but some here have said it didn't make a difference. I was even cut from baclofen cold turkey for a month and it didn't make a difference regarding the hyperacusis. It seems like mine spontaneously miraculously got 95% better. I had though resisted wearing hearing protection in my everyday life under the guise of sensitization to sound even though it never seemed to make any kind of healing to the core issue. Hyperacusis no longer dominates everything. It seems those times of sound intolerance despair are a distant memory. I still have the tinnitus, but the pressure and pain in my ears are practically 95% better. I do not care about the tinnitus anymore, not one bit really. But my life was about to be utterly destroyed a year later.

Well in early 2017 I was forced to take an atypical anti-psychotic called Zyprexa (Olanzapine) for nearly three months due to a mistaken diagnosis of psychosis total rubbish. This drug has just melted my brain entirely. I attempted to withdraw from it for over six months but had total insomnia for that entire time (0-2 hours of nightmarish sleep a night) twisted benzo-neuroleptic withdrawal syndrome.

Zyprexa has completely raped my brain. I am no longer able to to daydream, there is absolutely nothing in my mind left, imagination totally gone, emotions, memories are corrupted, I can't recall my past, as if the good times in my life never really happened. My thoughts have slowed down as if I've had a traumatic brain injury. My short term memory is that of an Alzheimer's patient, I am left with massive cognitive deficits. I have total anhedonia (lack of pleasure from anything). I had a very good year in 2016. No longer was the hyperacusis a problem, I could enjoy music again. Well not anymore, music doesn't feel like anything, no new ideas are formed. my mind is a totally empty void. Everything is diluted. Creativity is gone, I can't type as well as I used to and have aphasia and akathisia (inner restlessness), I fidget my legs and arms constantly. Zyprexa has caused 50lbs of weight gain, has rekt my metabolism causing metabolic syndrome with high cholesterol and blood sugar, I am borderline diabetic now. I sleep fragmented light sleep with the worst form of nightmares just twisted stuff I view at night if I even manage to sleep 4 hours average.

This is a ten times worse condition than that of my hyperacusis hell. I just don't know how to continue from this point on. I will never have a life that I will recognize. Never ever take anti-psychotics. I can't believe they could wreak this kind of havoc on people. There are similar cases to mine found on the internet. On top of this  I am socially excluded hermit for 10 years going on now with no friends, no human contact, not in education not in work, just agonized decomposing on my bed in utter despair.

http://personalitycafe.com/infp-forum-idealists/92164-antipsychotics-have-ruined-my-life.html

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/699621-Permanently-destroyed-as-a-human-being-from-neuroleptics

https://www.psychforums.com/anti-psych/topic89553.html

https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/3yaeem/antipsychotics_destroyed_me/

https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/2ejj24/antipsychotics_ruined_me/

https://www.psychforums.com/medication/topic41603.html

https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/2ejj24/antipsychotics_ruined_me/

https://www.psychforums.com/anti-psych/topic139467.html

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/archive/index.php/t-604465.html


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gutsygirl

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So sorry to hear how you've suffered and I pray this will improve for you!!

I have hyperacusis now, but in the past I've had years of psychosis. I'm not usually psychotic anymore, now that I know my triggers. While I understand that psychosis, you said, isn't the problem for you and they put you on an antipsychotic anyways, I became paychotic when I was suicidal and they put me on wellbutrin for the depression.

That medication made me so sick that I ended up in shock after a month, hallucinating in the emergency room. Even after stopping the medication I continued with psychosis day and night for several years, hiding it from friends.

Sleep was and still is very hard to come by without night terrors or just restlessness. I still struggle with depression, though not all the time.

The good news (figured I'd get the bad news out of the way first) is that a few years ago I started a diet called the specific carbohydrate diet (SCD). It's also known as the GAPS diet (the two are extremely similar and GAPS is more updated in terms of research). At that time my brain was totally wrecked like yours. I would entirely forget weeks sometimes, I'd think I'd had conversations with friends that we hadn't had, I couldn't find my words, the list went on and on.

The reason I started the diet was because I had SIBO (small intestine bacterial overgrowth) and I was constantly in horrible pain. GI doctor told me she was out of options for treatment. So I took it upon myself with the help of SCD Lifestyle (Google) to start the diet. I kept to it religiously for 2.5 years because, while it did improve my gut situation, it stopped the psychosis and I got my brain mostly back.

I hope this information helps. I haven't blogged in a long time, but my honest experience with SCD is recorded at http://www.naturallygutsy.wordpress.com . You can search for words in the posts, such as psychosis and Wellbutrin and posts about that will come up.

I was hoping to fix my gut, but ultimately both my gut got better and my brain did too with regards to mental health. The hard work was worth the payoff.

Thanks for reading. I'll keep you in my prayers.
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Take something up with the pharmas or the doctors in court. Drugs shouldn't have that kind of lasting effect on you. If true this drug can be even more dangerous than drugs like Trobalt. Seriously, look into this.

I'm sorry to hear what has happened to you. I hope everything gets better with time.
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nally

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You beat something once when you might have never thought it was possible, and you may do it again. Have hope. 

It may be that the antipsychotic has really caused a chemical imbalance that you need help redressing. I agree with trying a natural route e.g. diet or see an integrative psychiatrist/someone practicing functional Medicine. There is always hope. Keep looking for possible different therapies. Don't give up. 
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Taimon

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Thank you for trying to be encouraging nally, but the sad truth here is that Zyprexa is the one drug from which your brain will not heal from. I have been permanently destroyed as a human being from this drug. Every night I have realistic nightmares where I am being murdered. I never become sleepy, I go to sleep because of exhaustion from living in a tortured state. My life is totally destroyed since Zyprexa / Olanzapine. I can no longer function as I once did. I have severe cognitive impairment, more specfically the drug kind of made me think slower and reduced my short-term memory. I have no feelings or emotions at all, everything is just flat or more precisely EMPTY. I have no deeper creativity or imagination or motivation any more, its like I’m brain dead. This drug takes away what makes us humans. There are people going on in this exact same state for up to 8 years on the internet. I am currently over a year off and have 0 improvement in my being. I haven't read many people say that after taking neuroleptics. I am praying for terminal cancer, I can’t just live in this state of torment, My life is over.[frown]
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Steve2017

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I prayed for cancer a few years ago when suffering bad with T & H may God forgive us... We have to stay the distance whatever life sends us, good or bad - research 'energy to heal' or 'heal spiritually'... Pray it's powerful - and speak to YOUR 'Higher Self' for guidance when researching.
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Steve2017

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Are you still getting the bad dreams? It is possible its not the drugs at all - I have done a lot of research over the last 18 months on spirituality and positive/negative energy which we are all made up of 100%. 

If you are still getting them most/every night/s could be something negative going on in your system, energy is very powerful, if you consider raging storms the power of the sea, rocks, sand, birds, all energy.

Anyway back to your problem. Give me some information about you where you live in the world, job if any, name, young or older generation, try and keep it positive so I can work out a possible solution, or some guiding help with this. 

Steve.

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